Fang Talks

Caves
19 02 17

Questioning

Stayed at home all weekend, but it’s still been quite a wild one.

It’s strange. There’s nothing about my current situation to be unhappy about: I’m living in a good environment, have a steady job where there is still much for me to learn, and get to do cool things in my spare time. And yet, here I am, contemplating whether I should change it all up. You know, for the greater good.

…I say that, “the greater good”, but that’s not really it. I’m still cynical (or stubborn) enough to reject the idea of changing the world. Though, that’s not stopping me from helping others who strive to do just that. Such a task can’t be shouldered by individuals, after all.

Yes, I’m being vague. It’s just, I don’t know. The one moment you’re perfectly content with the way things are, and a two hour Skype call later you’re wondering whether your way of life has been flawed all this time. I thought I had things more or less figured out, but apparently there were a lot of blind spots.

It’s not necessarily uncomfortable. Just weird.
~ Fang

Comments

  • 22/02/2017 (5:04 AM)

    If you go out and buy a sports car tomorrow, then you’re having a mid-life crisis. If that’s not your problem, then everything is normal. Like Harry, I question everything I do constantly. For example, despite having 8 novels out and ideas for way more than another 8 floating around my head, I still ask myself from time to time, am I really a writer? Or should I do something different?

  • 20/02/2017 (3:56 AM)

    I quesiton everything about my life all of the time. And the fact is, I usually decide that i want to keep going with almost all major parts of it. But doubting it just means you’re paying attention, I guess.

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