Trying to be good at something is the first step towards… something not being fun anymore?
I sometimes play games. Casually. For fun. But they’re also the kind of games I’d like to be good at, so naturally I try and improve. Broaden and strengthen my skills, learnt about the details of the game, that kind of stuff. But then when I’m learning something new I continuously fail, sometimes for terribly dumb reasons, and I lose our team the game because of it. It’s frustrating and leaves me feeling like I wasted my time, like I didn’t learn or improve in any way.
It’s really conflicting. I play these games to have fun, and I find it enjoyable to become better at them, yet the process seems to suck all the excitement out of it. Makes it seem like a rough grind that doesn’t really go anywhere. It’s oddly difficult letting go of that “gotta get better” mentality and just have fun, however harsh the losses may be.
Maybe it’s a good idea to alternate “practice” with “for fun” games, rather than trying to do both at the same time, all the time.