That feeling when you feel like garbage.
Nah, there’s no self-loathing going on here, I just feel a bit sick and tired is all. No, literally. I’ve had a sore throat for a couple of days now and it may or may not be swollen on the inside. We’re now a couple of days in, and it feels like all the “bad” choices I’ve made are piling up rather than gradually fading away. I’m tired, my nose has started leaking, voice is hurting me more and more. It’s suffering.
But this effect also makes you appreciate how fucking stupid you are on a day-to-day basis, and how sweet it is your body can usually just shrug it off. You don’t normally get anything from having cold hands during a bike ride home, but when your immune system’s already weakened, yeah you’ll be feeling it.
The body’s comfortable and resilient up until it’s not, then it’s all downhill until it eventually manages to recover somehow.