You’re telling me there’s a problem with vacations? Hell yeah there is.
Vacations make you lazy. “Woah, yeah, shocker. Not.” I know, I know, but let me elaborate. Not only does it strengthen any laziness you may have had with you already, but it also does a fine job of downplaying your productivity if your will is not strong enough. Because hey, you have to admit, “but now I can finally laze around all day without consequence, and I deserve a break like this!” is a pretty good excuse to not get anything productive done at all.
I’m not kidding, it’s actually something I struggle with. I want to be productive, I want to do all the things I planned to do, but the weather’s too hot for that and I feel like I deserve a break, even though I really don’t. I haven’t done enough cool things yet to justify slacking off. A lot of unfinished projects litter the floor of my room, I need to carefully tiptoe around them every single morning. I haven’t rewritten a single world of Caves yet, the reddit post position tracker needs much more polish, the fang.io landing page needs rewriting, SSR2 is due for an update, Panic Attack’s foundation is still missing half its components, functional programming is still a mystery to me, and I can’t add C++ to my list of languages yet either.
And that sucks. I keep making excuses, I bail out at the last second after sitting my ass down and opening everything up, “nah I ain’t feeling it right now”. No shit you aren’t feeling it, you haven’t even tried anything yet! I am lazy and unmotivated, it shows in my posts, and I can’t stand it.
Fuck I can get so mad at myself sometimes.