Fang Talks

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Warning: mad, rad and super obvious spoiler for Caves inside. I’ve probably told you too much already.

I’d be lying if I said I killing off Andrea (a main character in Caves) was easy, fun or didn’t cause me to struggle. It’s the extreme opposite, actually. Hard, depressing and damn did it chip away at my soul. I found her to be a really lovable character, and her large role in the story wasn’t helping. But I think that wasn’t even the worst part about it. Yes, I’ve killed someone who has grown in my head. Yes, I’ve turned the story three-sixty degrees past the point of no return. I can learn to live with that though.

What made writing her death, and the parts leading up to it, extremely hard was the mindset I had to be in. I can’t exactly sit here all jolly, typing away at my little keyboard without a worry in the world. That wouldn’t produce texts nearly as grim as they should be. And though I’m not the best at it, I always try to become my character a little bit. Think like them, react like them, feel like them. And when that character’s girlfriend just died a somewhat painful death without that character being able to do anything about it, it feels really, really shitty. Is this the same kind of empathy as when watching a good movie? I’d say it’s similar, but still definitely different.

I’ve never had to experience the death of a loved one yet. Where most of my peers have already lost a grandparent, friend, close family member or beloved pet, I have no such awful experience under my belt. All I have is the ability to make myself feel down, and I’ll just have to work from there. Maybe this is a good thing, or maybe it just causes me to make incorrect assumptions on things. Then again, all individuals are different, so my character’s actions are always “correct”.

Let it be said though, that as hard as it may be, you shouldn’t be afraid to kill off your characters. I bet most all of you know Game of Thrones loves to do this, and from what I’ve heard, it’s a hella good story thanks to (or despite of) it. A death can kick momentum into your story, it can shift things around, send it flying towards the unexpected. And if it’s hard for you, as a writer, then you know it’ll probably leave a strong impact on your readers.

Aaaaand I’m feeling all sad again. Does it never end?
~ Fang


  • 29/05/2014 (4:39 AM)

    Damn this was an incredibly profound post. Before I continue; Game of Thrones sounds like something I’d like but I’m not one for a lot of character deaths.

    Having gotten that out of the way; it’s never easy to kill a character. It can also be difficult to put yourself in the mindset to do it. I once wrote a story where a character was abused to the point of suicidal insanity (what’s better is it was fanfiction) an I basically listened to the most depressing songs I have. I wanted to cry by the time I was done. I form emotional bonds with fictional characters way easier than I do with real people, so a fictional death can hit me pretty hard. The emotion really came across in the story and that’s all you can really hope for when it comes to writing those kinds of things.

    The best things to come out of any of the art forms are the ones that are charged and fuelled by emotion.

  • 28/05/2014 (10:26 AM)

    I don’t think it’s a good idea to get attached to characters. They should be viewed as tools, otherwise it gets hard to get rid of them when the times calls for it.

    As for bodyweight chest exercises at home I can’t really think of any. To be honest, even bench presses at the gym don’t really work for me and I’m relying more on cable machines these days.

    • 28/05/2014 (4:43 PM)

      Definitely, but it’s super hard not to. May be a good excuse to summon up your inner sadist though.

      Hmmkay, thanks anyway!

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