I tried writing a part for today, despite not feeling 100% up to it. I really tried, but couldn’t even get a single sentence down.
Okay, today is one of those days again, but that is only a part of the problem. The core of the issue lies in Caves itself. I had big dreams for it, I was ambitious about the thing. But I’m afraid it won’t be able to live up to it. It was always doomed to fail, in part thanks to its “in the moment” way of being written. Allow me to briefly elaborate.
The story is shit. Sure it may be a good buildup so far, but it’s leading nowhere. There is no plot. The way I have always seen it, spoiler alert (copy-paste invisible text), [we’ll never learn how Mitchell got down there, or what exactly happened on the surface]. With that out of the picture, there’s no conflict in the story (and I do not see a way to shoehorn it in at this point), meaning there’s no climax. The rising action leads to nothing. A lot of questions unanswered, most of which can’t be properly answered without a good conflict.
I’m not saying every story has to follow the classic 5-part build, I’m not saying Caves has to either. But come on, a story without conflict? Not gonna end well. Know how I’ve been struggling with the “aim” of Caves? This is it. There is no direction to take it in. I’ve thought up a few options, but they all suck more dick than a crack addict on a bad day, if you get what I’m saying. It’s just… No. I just don’t know.
And it’s maddening because I had this delusional thought I might be heading somewhere with this. Sure the writing may’ve been good, but an ugly monkey with tons of makeup still doesn’t wet my panties. I told you when I posted the first part, “Writing this as I go (this can’t end well)”. And it doesn’t end well.
Maybe I’ll find the inspiration, motivation and hope to pick this up again sometime soon. Maybe I won’t. Maybe I’ll just stick to writing little scraps, practicing for a story that’ll never be written. Maybe I’m not cut out to be writing, even if just in my free time.
That’s a good hundred-something hours down the drain, right here.