Fang Talks

Most of these things are rather childish.
03 05 13

Okay, well, fuck

Let me be honest here for a sec.

I feel like I’ve wasted my vacation. I hung out with friends a lot, and I’m not saying that’s a bad thing, I’m not saying I shouldn’t have done it, but I should really have spent the remaining time better. I’ve accomplished close to nothing this week. Progressed a few modules into Blender Noob to Pro, and… that’s about it. I feel terrible about this. Like, genuinely terrible.

Weird how I went from having so much passion and motivation to do stuff like gamedev, art, et cetera, to not being able to be assed to do anything. I’m not sure if it’s the fact that I have an entire week of free time, that I’ve been spending so much time partying with friends, or maybe even that I’m home alone? Who knows. I wish I knew, that’s for sure. I just, ugh, really kind of hate myself over this. It’s not the first time this shit’s happening, yet I still don’t know any way to kick myself back into action. It’ll just have to happen naturally. Let’s hope it does as soon as school starts again. The limited free time will hopefully encourage me to start spending it more effectively again.

Also, on yesterdays little piece of improv writing, DWei commented all he heard was “to be continued” as said by the Half Life: Full Life Consequences narrator. Not sure if this is a good thing or not, but I can say there probably won’t be much more. I did a little bit of insanity acting when I was bored yesterday, and that came out. Didn’t write it all down right after though, so some parts were lost. Oh well, wasn’t really going anywhere anyway.

Parents coming home tomorrow. Panic!
~ Fang

Comments

  • 03/05/2013 (11:55 PM)

    You shouldn’t be beating yourself up so much over this man. It was a vacation for a start. You’re supposed to not do much. Chances are you’re just feeling some burn out. Take a rest and you’ll be fine.

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