I don’t know, but somehow today feels a bit hazy in some way.
Everything looks, smells, tastes, and is totally real. But there’s this faint feeling laid on top of it, kind of the feeling you have when you dream. I don’t know what it is. Nothing of significance happened today. Though this feeling did have me reflect on my feelings on stuff for some reason.
AND THERE’S SO FLIPPING MANY
I don’t know. Just… ugh. Again. And I don’t feel like doing shit for the coming test week, either. (That’s next week, damnit.) This is even worse than last one.
Perhaps I’m subconsciously noting that I’m getting so fucking close to the end of what has so far been, and maybe will always be, the best period in my life. For a change, I’ve lived happily the past couple of years, and only a few months from now, it’ll end.
Just like that. My entire social situation, in shambles. I’ll be alone again. Alone, amidst a mass of people I don’t know. Amidst a mass of people. Amidst of people I don’t know.
Sure, I’ll try my best to keep regular contact with all the good bros and sisses I know and love, but it won’t be the same.
I know some of you guys I’m talking about are reading this. I guess I’m supposed to say something here, but I have no idea what. Just… <3 It's all coming dangerously close guys. The whole "moving on with life" thing is coming dangerously close, and I don't like it one bit. I predict depressive blog posts for months. ~ Fang