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Not the usual “meh fuck it” mood, but the really, really very shitty one. And to be honest I’m not quite sure how to handle it right now.

Been rather tired ever since the test week ended, which was like, two weeks after Christmas break. But I managed that, and stayed on track pretty much. But since, what, two days or so now I’ve been feeling rather damn shitty. I don’t know why (or maybe I actually do but just don’t want to know) but something’s been pulling on me, stripping me of my energy.

Getting pissed off at things slightly easier too. Not to mention that things also get me down quicker. Fuck whatever happened to the all optimistic, happy-go-lucky, keep-your-morals-up, what-are-you-doing-son, excited me? I’m not as I was, I don’t act or feel as free.

Maybe I just need a straight answer to one question. I think I already know the answer –and the shittier one at that–, but that shouldn’t get me down like this. That one smile was so worth it, it should be more than enough a reward by itself. Then why am I overthinking other parts of the story like this? Overthinking, filling my mind with fuss. It shouldn’t matter that much, but now it feels like it really does.

I wonder if I can just sort of reach over and pull myself towards the coming break. But no, I got to pull myself through tomorrow, first. At least my friend will be teaching me guitar again after school, so that’s something to look forward to I guess. It’s just, things, you know. They feel fucked up as far as feelings of things go.

Guess it’s best to stop dwelling on it for now though. Sorry to depress you guys like this but it feels good to write things down like this. That’s one of the reasons why I like blogging, I guess.

Welp, see you tomorrow.
~ Fang

Comments

  • 19/02/2012 (5:23 AM)

    I have two blogs.. One’s in English, the other is in Filipino. And in there, I share my thoughts when I feel down. Depressed. Disappointed.. :( I rarely post rants.

    We all get that, sometimes.. And yes, blogging about it helps.

  • 17/02/2012 (5:20 PM)

    We all have days like this from time to time. Just watch your favorite show, play your favorite game, listen to your favorite song, and fap to your favorite porn. Those things usually cheer me up when I’m feeling down.

  • 17/02/2012 (9:26 AM)

    Hope your mood gets better man…

  • 17/02/2012 (8:00 AM)

    I often times use blogging as a way of getting out what I am feeling too. It’s tough sometimes just to live, not sure why, but things just get you down, and it is always good to have an out.

  • 17/02/2012 (2:21 AM)

    Writing things down or say thing them our loud can be cathartic, do its good to get it off your chest :)
    Hope you feel happy again soon. Whenever I’m down I YouTube videos of crazy cats or people falling over, makes me feel a bit better :P

  • 17/02/2012 (1:37 AM)

    Aww cheer up dude!

    Keep setting things to look forward to like your guitar lessons tomorrow =)

  • 17/02/2012 (12:46 AM)

    It does feel good to write down what you’re feeling. I felt a lot better after I wrote that poem that Hazel put up for me. It felt odd to feel so happy after feeling that depressed. It’s shitty things are, well, shitty, but they should look up eventually dude. You know where I am if you want someone to talk to.

  • 16/02/2012 (10:47 PM)

    Ugh, this entire week have been a mess for me too. I can relate, things have not been going well for me either. :\

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